Confusion

Talked with LS yesterday.

She said she will not talk, she just said no to everything.

what am i to do?

It's not good to force anyone to make a decision in favour for us. It would be better if, if i forget her. No more disturbance for her and for me too.

But how am i going to do that. Man it's gona be tough. but u see there will be a way let me find out. May be hoping some day, some day she'll come back to be my friend again.

GOOD BYE LS.
I LOVE YOU.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
LS

I Want to get along with her again.

I don't know what i done then. I just want to be with you. thats all. I just want u. I want u back with me. always by my side. WHen will u come back LS. please please come back. I love you LS i love you most of all. I want u back. I want u back as my friend. Please come back to me.

I can't take it any more. I'm sorry for what had happened. I'm sorry. Is there anything else for me to do if you want to come back to me. Please.

Hey somebody say her to come back.

That day i asked why she was doing like that. She said its no fault of mine but its her fault. She thinks she just seperated me from my other friends and they say so. who cares i'm the one who should decide who i'm to talk to, to whom with i am to move along, and all these things. But she is ordering me to move along with the person i'm hating the most. what can i do. How am i going to solve this problem.

last friday, i had talked with my sis she has promised to help me out, but still no clues how she is going to handle it.

Please LS come back to me. I'll do anything if you are gona come back to me as the same old LS.
Please come back, please.

The Exams

The Month long festival starts 1st of tis month. It will be hard to do the things which i would love too. But its too long for a fight to go on. I just can't take it. I want to talk, i want her to talk with me. I fear if it would be a permanent divide. But god don't let it happen. But anyway i've got some xams to concentrate. Bye

It's Birthday Bash

It's OCTOBER 30th my b'day. then but u see still my LS is not talking to me. She didn't wish me even you know. what can we do. I wore a two color orange and rose pyjama and kurta. just nothing more University practicals was just 2 days to go god. only. knows. what am going to do.

The Revival. The Restoration, The Resurrection

Yes its 20th of OCT, my system started to open up, booted and i could hear the familiar Winodows startup sound. It was music to my ears. Again my SYS was up and running. WOW now i can listen to my favourite music. I'm back with bang. I can be the king of information once again. But i had a short time and a lot of information to gather, which i had not done for the past one month, with my xams at the backyard how am i gonna do it. Well u see we can always do it. its just something called the art of management and i am talking abt the part of it called TIME MANAGEMENT. i'll do it, u see u have some will u will have some way.

Tap, blip, fuuuuuussssssssssh

Yes that was the second thing that happened in september. My sys SMPS blew up stopping me from using it.
shit. was i worried. was i worried?

yes i was like a mad man trying to restore on my own. still i wasn't able to.

The successful electrician and system service engineer outside has always problems when it happens with his own sys.

i was unable to restore it. Ok lets wait till time comes.

The tour

Nothing much eventfull happened, except for a 2 things.

The one most important thing was the tour which we in our department went. We went for Ootacamund. It was a nice place. But i just went there half hearted. I really did not want to go to the tour. But still i went plainly for 2 reasons. One was that my friends just pleaded me to come, or else they too will not go. 2nd my favorite cute little mam was one of the Faculties accompaning us in the tour.

It was a nice tour. The tour was for 3 days, We enjoyed did what ever we had wanted, since it will be the last tour together.

well we had some bitter memories too. for me the whole tour was a bitter memory. I don't wanna remember anything abt the tour, xcept a few things.and thats it.

The Fight

I still remeber the day this was to start. August 27th that was the day I asked Loud Speaker(LS) why she stopped calling me. May be there was no reason.

First first let me say who this LS is. She is one of my best friend. Actually i hae only 2 BEST friends. lets see abt the other later. u see i loved her a lot. she was my best friend.

I was the one who started this fight. i know it. i was the one who said "i'll not talk with you untill you are gonna call me". i didn't speak to her, but she too accepted with some other reasons for which she had stopped talking to me which i was latter to know. At that time my guess was something like this. It was something related to the fight all these people had over me at a training session when i was away to mumbai. Everyone in my class was fighting over me for control over me.

Now what am i to do. I just did only one thing that i thought was gona solve this problem. I still don't regret what i had done then and i'll not, since i do only which i think is correct. I stopped moving freely with everyone and moved closely with only some people and that too secretly.

After so long

its been a long time since my last post nearly 3 months. Sorry. U see my sys was down with so many problems and then my xams came, then i got so busy.

ok ok. i'll tell everything
but slowly.

ok what happened in august end . wait, yes the begining of a fight.
september saw our tour
october saw my birthday and the fight
november saw my xams.
now december is seeing my struggle to get along with my best of friends The aftermath of the fight that started in August.

well we'll see one by one, don't worry i'll let u know.