Excitement! At this time! WHat's wrong with me !#@*$?

Well it's nearly 20 days since i last wrote. A lot did occur in these
days! got some decisions made, by myself. Shouldered some
responsibilities. And well may be did something that was out of my
character also(Preparing for the wekkly test well ahead of time).

The rain had indeed caused some heavy damage. The road i usually take was
damaged heavily, and i was forced to take alternate routes. But now after
everything returned to normal, i'm just confused as to which route to take
to work.

Well sort of my style dosen't it. Ok.

Got some songs of Queen and Chemical Brothers downloaded. Queen's 'we are
the champions' and 'princes of the universe' are cool. also chemical
brothers song 'galvanize' and 'belive' were addictive, the one why perform
with Korn (Shoots and Ladders) was quite a music that i loved.

Spoke to priya mam after a long time last sunday. Sarat came to see me on
that day evening. I was the only one at my workplace. It was quite fun to
handle the center all by myself, though there were some tense and dilemic
situations.

I feel a bit pity for those who were disappointed by the HP craze. But i
couldn't do anything more than that or at max i can feel sorry for them.
nothing more.

I had to take some hard decisions. I decided to skip HCL Bpo interview.
i'm not gonna regret it. Also to start preparations of CAT only by today.
That is no problem. No preparations no disappointments. Still i'm pretty
much excited about this exam which i'm gonna write tomorrow. I don't know
why? It's as though, it feels like i'm gonna breeze thru this exam. I've
never felt like this anytime before than today. It's kinda fuzzy.

It's not like usual speedy workout which starts a week before any big xam.
Kinda enjoying this pressure(may be). But i don't know to express it in
words.

Yesterday night i got the books from jsri. So i started off today morning.
Went to center for a to fill in the role of external. i'm confident about
english and little math, i hope that i win tomorrow.

Yesterday after everything i did decided something. I'm gonna buy a
assembled BULLET within 2 months from now. Also i'm gonna leave this job as
soon as i can.

This job isn't fun anymore. There is no adventures and excitements that is
usually attached with this job, in this center. It's kinda making me lazy.

And hey some thing else did happen. Lynda wrote back after a long time.
It was quite a relief. I'm so relieved to have recieved her reply. So this
friendship still continues and will continue till death do us apart.

I think i've rambled a lot, better i go and start continuing my preparation
now. So bye,

off i go now.

Hey all, I've got a job

it's been a fortnight since i last worte. Well i got myself a job and that
is what the reason for my absence. It's a nice one u know. The one i had
waited for. It just happened at the verge when i was about to change my
mind to take up a software job, which i hate the most. I hate programming
jobs, and programming for money.

I placed myself as the Center Network Administrator in NIIT where i'm
studying. The pay is somewhere around 3.5K but that is enough for me.
What matters for me is experience. The job is fun. Though the initial
beginning was something back breaking, now it is fun full of fun. Last
sunday when they declared leave i just couldn't take it. it was completely
boring that day. I just couldn't take it for being away from so many
computers.

I have posted some pictures in the album titles september 22nd, which shows
some of parts of my workplace.

Also there are some pictures of Chennai at night in album chennai at night.
and some more workplace photos.

Well off i go now have a nice day.

Hey all,

it's been a fortnight since i last worte. Well i got myself a job and that
is what the reason for my absence. It's a nice one u know. The one i had
waited for. It just happened at the verge when i was about to change my
mind to take up a software job, which i hate the most. I hate programming
jobs, and programming for money.

I placed myself as the Center Network Administrator in NIIT where i'm
studying. The pay is somewhere around 3.5K but that is enough for me.
What matters for me is experience. The job is fun. Though the initial
beginning was something back breaking, now it is fun full of fun. Last
sunday when they declared leave i just couldn't take it. it was completely
boring that day. I just couldn't take it for being away from so many
computers.

I have posted some pictures in the album titles september 22nd, which shows
some of parts of my workplace.

Also there are some pictures of Chennai at night in album chennai at night.
and some more workplace photos.

Well off i go now have a nice day.

"DIE"

When you live by the sword, you die by the sword
I'll probablly die in the vocal booth spittin' out raw
Die on stage, rippin' down tours
Die from age, trickin' out-a-town whores
And die on a death mission, two tec's spittin'
No vest section from my chest missin'
Die cuz the jewels in my necklace glisten
Or die in the streets over somethin' petty
Cuz a broke ass nigga tryed ta say I asked Betty
Die from a shot from a said war golck
From a kid on the block while sittin' in the drop
Or die cuz I was on, ain't see 'em comin'
Too late, eight shots got my body nummin'
Die for fuckin' his bitch in his bed
Die cuz a nigga thought I snitched ta the feds
Die wit a knife six inches in my head
I could die on death row, sentenced to the chair
Or die cuz a nigga pulled his Rosco out quicker
I was high off vodka, hydro, or malt liquor
Die cuz I knew I shoulda laid that man
Die cuz the cops tricked me ta say that man
Die cuz I hesitated ta spray that man
Die cuz I hesitated ta pay that man
Die cuz my man passed me a empty tool
Die cuz I panicked, I couldn't keep my cool
Die cuz I mixed all them pills wit Hennessy
Or die cuz them niggas was jel, they envyed me
Die tryin' ta seal the fate of my enemy
I could go out from a case of mistaken identity
Or die cuz the door wasn't open, it was locked
Die cuz the 4 was broken, it wouldn't pop
Die cuz a nigga wasn't focused on the block
Die cuz them niggas thought tha coke was in the spot
Die cuz another nigga said I said somethin'
Die cuz that newsy bitch said I did somethin'
Die cuz a nigga was tryin' ta get a name

We chapters of the same book, just a different page
Niggas of the struggle all out ta get paid
Doin' what we gotta do to avoid the raid
Avoid the cage, but you can't avoid the grave
We chapters of the same book, just a different page

karma

Weren't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore,
And how you need your space, and give the keys back to your door?
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me.
But still you said that love was gone and that I had to leave.

(Now you)
{Talkin' 'bout a family.}
(Now you)
{Sayin' I complete your dream.}
(Now you)
{Sayin' I'm your everything.}
{You're confusing me, what you say to me.}

Don't play with me, don't play with me.

'Cause

(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Now who's cryin,' desirin' to come back to me?
(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Now who's cryin,' desirin' to come back?

I remember when
I was sittin' home alone,
Waitin' for you
'Til three o'clock in the morn.

And when you came home you'd always had some sorry excuse,
And explainin' to me, like I'm was some kind of a fool.
I sacrificed the things I wanted to do things for you.
But when it's time to do for me, you never come through.

(Now you)
{Wanna be a part of me.}
(Now you)
{Have so much to say to me.}
(Now you)
{Wanna make time for me.}
{What you do to me, you're confusin' me.}

Don't play with me, don't play with me.

'Cause

(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Now who's cryin,' desirin' to come back to me?
(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Now who's cryin,' desirin' to come back?

I remember when I was sittin' home alone,
Waitin' for you
'Til three o'clock in the morn,
Night after night, knowin' somethin' goin' on.
Wasn't home before I be goin', goin' gone.

Lord knows it wasn't easy, believe me.
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what you supposed to do.
No need to hose me, fool, 'cause I'm over you.

'Cause

(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Now who's cryin,' desirin' to come back to me?
(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Gotta stop tryin' to come back to me.

(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
It's called karma, baby,
And it goes around.

(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Now who's cryin,' desirin' to come back to me?

' Teardrops ' -->>>that i would be the lucky one to see you hurt to see you cry

To many times you crossed the line
but you come crawling back to me
saying we can be friends it's not the end
trying to fix it with sorry
you cheated you lied you made me cry
left me alone with no affection
now look you're broke i hope your choking
on your tears and all your tension
He'll take your heart
(he'll take your heart, he'll take you heart)
destroy each and every part
(each and every part)
even calling in the dark
because he's dangerous
that man is dangerous
Teardrops come again
i can almost feel your pain
i never ever thought the day would come
that i would be the lucky one
to see you hurt to see you cry
gives my soul a natural high
think of all the times you walked on me
the teardrops came to set me free
You seem to bring the pain
no more to game them out the situation
you were the rock to hold me down
you were the cause of my frustration
now i see you cry you wipes your eyes
you've promised me you've changed
but in the end your still the same
how can a player change his game
He'll take your heart
(he'll take your heart, he'll take you heart)
destroy each and every part
(each and every part)
even calling in the dark
because he's dangerous
that man is dangerous
Teardrops come again
i can almost feel your pain
i never ever thought the day would come
that i would be the lucky one
to see you hurt to see you cry
gives my soul a natural high
think of all the times you walked on me
the teardrops came to set me free
He's in your mind
he's a shadow in the night
in his eyes there is no lie
because he's dangerous
that man is dangerous
Teardrops come again
i can almost feel your pain
i never ever thought the day would come
that i would be the lucky one
to see you hurt to see you cry
gives my soul a natural high
think of all the times you walked on me
the teardrops came to set me free
Teardrops come again
i can almost feel your pain
i never ever thought the day would come
that i would be the lucky one
to see you hurt to see you cry
gives my soul a natural high
think of all the times you walked on me
the teardrops came to set me free

Return

You turn and look my way,
I get shivers down my spine.
You look into my eyes,
And tell me that you're fine.

The last time that i saw you,
Was when you left that day.
You said you had to go,
And there was nothing I could say.

Since them I have moved on,
With all the pain and tears.
Counting down the days,
That soon turned into years.

Now I want to know,
Why you have returned.
It will only bring more pain.
I'm a prize you haven't earned.

But if you want me back,
You must show me that you care.
That means you mustn't leave,
I must always know you're there.

I hope this time's for real.
I'd hate to loose you twice.
But this time I am watching you.
You're walking on thin ice.

Perfect

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

Inside your heaven

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess it's right
It's so amazing
Everytime I see you, I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be the one to hold you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
If mountains form I'll still be here
Holding you until the day I die

Destiny

What if I never knew
What if I never found you
I'd never have this feeling in my heart
How did this come to be
I don't know how you found me

But from the moment I saw you
Deep inside my heart I knew

Baby you're my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see
You were always meant to be my destiny

I wanted someone like you
Someone that I could hold on to
And give my love until the end of time
But forever was just a word
Something I'd only heard about

But now you're always there for me
When you say forever I believe

Maybe all we need is just a little faith
'Cause baby I believe that love will find the way