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Tuesday, September 13, 2005

"DIE"

When you live by the sword, you die by the sword
I'll probablly die in the vocal booth spittin' out raw
Die on stage, rippin' down tours
Die from age, trickin' out-a-town whores
And die on a death mission, two tec's spittin'
No vest section from my chest missin'
Die cuz the jewels in my necklace glisten
Or die in the streets over somethin' petty
Cuz a broke ass nigga tryed ta say I asked Betty
Die from a shot from a said war golck
From a kid on the block while sittin' in the drop
Or die cuz I was on, ain't see 'em comin'
Too late, eight shots got my body nummin'
Die for fuckin' his bitch in his bed
Die cuz a nigga thought I snitched ta the feds
Die wit a knife six inches in my head
I could die on death row, sentenced to the chair
Or die cuz a nigga pulled his Rosco out quicker
I was high off vodka, hydro, or malt liquor
Die cuz I knew I shoulda laid that man
Die cuz the cops tricked me ta say that man
Die cuz I hesitated ta spray that man
Die cuz I hesitated ta pay that man
Die cuz my man passed me a empty tool
Die cuz I panicked, I couldn't keep my cool
Die cuz I mixed all them pills wit Hennessy
Or die cuz them niggas was jel, they envyed me
Die tryin' ta seal the fate of my enemy
I could go out from a case of mistaken identity
Or die cuz the door wasn't open, it was locked
Die cuz the 4 was broken, it wouldn't pop
Die cuz a nigga wasn't focused on the block
Die cuz them niggas thought tha coke was in the spot
Die cuz another nigga said I said somethin'
Die cuz that newsy bitch said I did somethin'
Die cuz a nigga was tryin' ta get a name

We chapters of the same book, just a different page
Niggas of the struggle all out ta get paid
Doin' what we gotta do to avoid the raid
Avoid the cage, but you can't avoid the grave
We chapters of the same book, just a different page

karma

Weren't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore,
And how you need your space, and give the keys back to your door?
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me.
But still you said that love was gone and that I had to leave.

(Now you)
{Talkin' 'bout a family.}
(Now you)
{Sayin' I complete your dream.}
(Now you)
{Sayin' I'm your everything.}
{You're confusing me, what you say to me.}

Don't play with me, don't play with me.

'Cause

(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Now who's cryin,' desirin' to come back to me?
(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Now who's cryin,' desirin' to come back?

I remember when
I was sittin' home alone,
Waitin' for you
'Til three o'clock in the morn.

And when you came home you'd always had some sorry excuse,
And explainin' to me, like I'm was some kind of a fool.
I sacrificed the things I wanted to do things for you.
But when it's time to do for me, you never come through.

(Now you)
{Wanna be a part of me.}
(Now you)
{Have so much to say to me.}
(Now you)
{Wanna make time for me.}
{What you do to me, you're confusin' me.}

Don't play with me, don't play with me.

'Cause

(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Now who's cryin,' desirin' to come back to me?
(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Now who's cryin,' desirin' to come back?

I remember when I was sittin' home alone,
Waitin' for you
'Til three o'clock in the morn,
Night after night, knowin' somethin' goin' on.
Wasn't home before I be goin', goin' gone.

Lord knows it wasn't easy, believe me.
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what you supposed to do.
No need to hose me, fool, 'cause I'm over you.

'Cause

(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Now who's cryin,' desirin' to come back to me?
(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Gotta stop tryin' to come back to me.

(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
It's called karma, baby,
And it goes around.

(What goes around comes around;
What goes up must come down.)
Now who's cryin,' desirin' to come back to me?

' Teardrops ' -->>>that i would be the lucky one to see you hurt to see you cry

To many times you crossed the line
but you come crawling back to me
saying we can be friends it's not the end
trying to fix it with sorry
you cheated you lied you made me cry
left me alone with no affection
now look you're broke i hope your choking
on your tears and all your tension
He'll take your heart
(he'll take your heart, he'll take you heart)
destroy each and every part
(each and every part)
even calling in the dark
because he's dangerous
that man is dangerous
Teardrops come again
i can almost feel your pain
i never ever thought the day would come
that i would be the lucky one
to see you hurt to see you cry
gives my soul a natural high
think of all the times you walked on me
the teardrops came to set me free
You seem to bring the pain
no more to game them out the situation
you were the rock to hold me down
you were the cause of my frustration
now i see you cry you wipes your eyes
you've promised me you've changed
but in the end your still the same
how can a player change his game
He'll take your heart
(he'll take your heart, he'll take you heart)
destroy each and every part
(each and every part)
even calling in the dark
because he's dangerous
that man is dangerous
Teardrops come again
i can almost feel your pain
i never ever thought the day would come
that i would be the lucky one
to see you hurt to see you cry
gives my soul a natural high
think of all the times you walked on me
the teardrops came to set me free
He's in your mind
he's a shadow in the night
in his eyes there is no lie
because he's dangerous
that man is dangerous
Teardrops come again
i can almost feel your pain
i never ever thought the day would come
that i would be the lucky one
to see you hurt to see you cry
gives my soul a natural high
think of all the times you walked on me
the teardrops came to set me free
Teardrops come again
i can almost feel your pain
i never ever thought the day would come
that i would be the lucky one
to see you hurt to see you cry
gives my soul a natural high
think of all the times you walked on me
the teardrops came to set me free

Return

You turn and look my way,
I get shivers down my spine.
You look into my eyes,
And tell me that you're fine.

The last time that i saw you,
Was when you left that day.
You said you had to go,
And there was nothing I could say.

Since them I have moved on,
With all the pain and tears.
Counting down the days,
That soon turned into years.

Now I want to know,
Why you have returned.
It will only bring more pain.
I'm a prize you haven't earned.

But if you want me back,
You must show me that you care.
That means you mustn't leave,
I must always know you're there.

I hope this time's for real.
I'd hate to loose you twice.
But this time I am watching you.
You're walking on thin ice.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Perfect

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

Inside your heaven

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess it's right
It's so amazing
Everytime I see you, I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows you away
I wanna be the one to hold you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
If mountains form I'll still be here
Holding you until the day I die

Destiny

What if I never knew
What if I never found you
I'd never have this feeling in my heart
How did this come to be
I don't know how you found me

But from the moment I saw you
Deep inside my heart I knew

Baby you're my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see
You were always meant to be my destiny

I wanted someone like you
Someone that I could hold on to
And give my love until the end of time
But forever was just a word
Something I'd only heard about

But now you're always there for me
When you say forever I believe

Maybe all we need is just a little faith
'Cause baby I believe that love will find the way

I swear

I see the questions in your eyes
I know what's waiting on your mind
You can be sure I know my part
'cause i stand beside you through the years
You'll only cry those happy tears
And though I make mistakes
I'll never break your heart

And I swear by the moon
And the stars in the sky I'll be there
I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there
For better or worse
Till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
And I swear

I'll give you every thing I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the wall
And when just the two of us are there
You won't have to ask if I still care
'cause as the time turns the page
My love won't ever age at all

la la

You can dress me up in diamonds
You can dress me up in dirt
You can throw me like a line-man
I like it better when it hurts

Oh, I have waited here for you
I have waited

You make me wanna la la
in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a french maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up, I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream

You can meet me on an aero-plane
Or in the back of the bus
You can throw me like a boomerang
I'll come back and beat you up

Oh, I have waited here for you
Dont, keep me waiting

You make me wanna la la
in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a french maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up, I want more
You make me wanna

You make me wanna la la
in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a french maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up, I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream

I feel safe with you
I can be myself tonight
It's alright, with you
Cuz you hold, my secrets tight
You do, You do

You make me wanna la la, la la la, la la, la la la la la la la la la
You make me wanna la la, la la la la

You make me wanna la la
in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a french maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up, I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna la la
in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a french maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up, I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream

You make me wanna la la, la la la, la la, la la la la la la la la la
You make me wanna la la, la la la la
You make me wanna la la, la la la, la la, la la la la la la la la la
You make me wanna la la, la la la la
You make me wanna la la, la la la, la la, la la la la la la la la la
You make me wanna la la, la la la la

Can't u C??

Cant you see?

I am holding a candle in my hand

Spreading the light of love all around

Shining like a star on the sky

Waving all the problems bye

I know what to do and what to say

How to make my nation gay

Cant you see its time to smile?

Cant you forget your grieves for a while?

The game of life you can only win

When you make the needy grin

Lets join our hands to save humanity

To give the message of peace and sincerity

Open your eyes and see the world is in need

Make up your mind and you can help them indeed

All you have to do is to put your heart in confidence

And march towards the circumfrence

Jump in the pool of your heart

And find what it whispers in you to start

Open your heart and touch the sky

Lit up your mind and you can fly

What is Love

Love is giving someone...
a portion of your heart

Love is thinking of them...
When you are close or far apart.

Love is caring when they are glad...
and caring when they are blue.

Love is sharing good and bad...
as though it is part of you.

Love is finding Happiness...
in just a touch or a smile.

Love is everything that counts...
It's what makes LIFE worthwhile.

LOve DOes nOt NEed Any reASOn

Lady : Why do you like me..? Why do you love me?
Man : I can't tell the reason.. but I really like you..
Lady : You can't even tell me the reason... how can you say you like me? How
can you say you love me?
Man : I really don't know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.
Lady : Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend's boyfriend
can tell her why he loves her but not you!
Man : Ok..ok!!! Erm... because you are beautiful,
because your voice is sweet,
because you are caring,
because you are loving,
because you are thoughtful,
because of your smile,
because of your every movements.
The lady felt very satisfied with the man's answer.
Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident and became
comma. The Guy then placed a letter by her side, and here is the content:

Darling,
Because of your sweet voice that I love you...
Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your care and concern that I like you..
Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your smile,
because of your every movements that I love you..
Now can you smile? Now can you move?
No, therefore I cannot love you...
If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you
anymore.
Do love need a reason? NO!
Therefore, I still love you...
And love doesn't need a reason

" Sometimes the best and the most beautiful things in the world cannot be
seen, cannot be touched, but can be felt in the heart

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Broken Beyond Repair

Slowly I feel my heart shattering
As I drown myself in tears,
Crippled by all the pain I've endured
For these many past years.

Blow by blow I get weaker
As the pain begins to grow,
And my heart gets ripped assunder
Till I feel my blood stop its flow.

And as I lay here crying,
Drowning in despair,
I come to the realisation
That I'm broken beyond repair.

Halfway Home

Well I used to walk along the opposite side of the road
and made others get out of my way
I used to think that I could sit and wait for the times
but I know I should meet them halfway

I'm halfway home and I'm on my own
I'm halfway there and I don't care, I don't mind
I plan to leave here after supper time
that's when traffic is light, all I need is a sign
and I'll be alright. I'll be fine

Well I used to think that i could just sleep and then I would dream
And everything it would just come to me
Until I woke one day without anything to eat
Lying on the opposite side of the street

I'm halfway home and I'm still out on my own
I'm halfway there and I don't care, I don't mind
Because it ain't my time not to stay or say
Well I can't say, but you can bet that i will play my heart out
I'll won't lay.

I used to think that I could just sit and wait for the times
But I know I gotta meet them somewhere out there halfway

I'm halfway home I tried running with the flow
I'm halfway there. Ain't it funny how everybody seems to care
I planned to get there around supper time their serving up bread and wine
All I needed was a sign and I guess I'llbe allright.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
I'll be alright.
I'll be alright.

(It seems to be a running theme about being fine and allright but I don't
mind.)
Because I'll be fine and alright
I'll be fine
I'll be fine

Trust

There is no-one left in the world
that I can hold onto
There is really no-one left at all
there is only you
And if you leave me now
you leave all that we were
undone
There is really no-one left
you are the only one

...And still the hardest part for you
to put your trust in me
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I CAN SAY...
WHY WON'T YOU JUST BELIEVE?

A wish upon a Star

I wish upon a star
that no matter how far apart we are
you'll find me and you'll see
How perfect are we
I wish that....
if for some reason my wishes dont come true
That another person out there is wishing for me�
� hopefully that person is you.

PEACE

Now, God be thanked Who has matched us with His hour,
And caught our youth, and wakened us from sleeping,
With hand made sure, clear eye, and sharpened power,
To turn, as swimmers into cleanness leaping,
Glad from a world grown old and cold and weary,
Leave the sick hearts that honour could not move,
And half-men, and their dirty songs and dreary,
And all the little emptiness of love!

Oh! we, who have known shame, we have found release there,
Where there's no ill, no grief, but sleep has mending,
Naught broken save this body, lost but breath;
Nothing to shake the laughing heart's long peace there
But only agony, and that has ending;
And the worst friend and enemy is but Death.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Friendship

Friendship is like the breeze,
You can't hold it,
Smell it,
Taste it,
Or know when it's coming,
But you can always feel it,
And you'll always know it's there,
It may come and then go,
But you can know it'll always be back.

No one can go back and make a brand new start.
But you can always start from now and make a brand new ending

Saturday, September 03, 2005

A quiz! : may be

heres this quiz for your reading enjoyment.. Ha!

Name: Anbarasan
Birthday: Oct 30
Birthplace: Chennai, Tamil Nadu
Current Location: Chennai, tamil nadu, hoping leave this city of mine
soon....
Eye Color: black
Hair Color: Black
Height: 6"2
Right Handed or Left Handed: righty *grins*
Your Heritage: Holy Hell I couldnt tell ya..a lil of this a lil of tht
The Shoes You Wore Today: leather black
Your Weakness: I have lots.. chocolate, im weird ooook.. ICE CREAM
Your Fears: being in the light, Bright lights,Deep Water, Heights,
airplanes, Boats, Bugs, Rats, Bats, myself, and the list goes on.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Get a Job
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: O
Thoughts First Waking Up: I wish i could sleep in
Your Best Physical Feature: Beats me.. my eyes i was told..
Your Most Missed Memory: 2003-2004 Best Year Ever!!!
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
Single or Group Dates: Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino and coffee sometimes
Do you Smoke: not ciggys *grins*
Do you Swear: Too Much..not lately tho
Do you Sing: always
Do you Shower Daily: a shower or a bath..
Have you Been in Love: a long ass time ago..never again tho
Do you want to go to College: yes again.
Do you want to get Married: ha maybe..tho i get sick of people quick and im
a crazy mofo..no one can keep up.. ha!
Do you belive in yourself: maybe yes maybe no
Do you think you are Attractive: i'm a head turner but i ain't attractive
Are you a Health Freak:hell no
Do you get along with your Parents: least of the times
Do you like Thunderstorms: ha you're kidding.. hell yes...
Do you play an Instrument: Used to play the piano & Keyboard
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: NOOOOOOOO
In the past month have you Smoked: NOOOOOOOO
In the past month have you been on Drugs: NOOOOOO
In the past month have you gone on a Date: Nah
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Noo
In the past month have you eaten a box of Chocolates: shit i never get a box
of chocolates
In the past month have you been on Stage: nah..but i was in a wedding.. with
tons of peopel starin.. eww
In the past month have you been Dumped: nah..
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Nah..thats lame
Ever been Drunk: lol nah
Ever been called a Tease: Every Day haha
Ever been Beaten up: a few times.. Meh
Ever Shoplifted: When I was in my class 9
How do you want to Die: Before I'm frail.. please and thanks
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Lol.. Since I'm a grown up already
Freak.. But Ive always wanted to start my own business..lol
What country would you most like to Visit: Spain ,Germany,Mexico.. Anywheres
Actually I havent been anywheres really..

~~~~~~~~~~~IN A BOY/GIRl.... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Favourite Eye Color: blue,green,hazel and well brown if they be hot
Favourite Hair Color: black mostly, may be brown too
Short or Long Hair: Long
Height: Over 5"6 please... perferably tall in the 6 foot range
Weight: whatever but not too heavy.
Best Clothing Style: doesnt matter as long as it looks good
Number of Drugs I have taken: 0
Number of CDs I own: a few burnt ones which i lent out. meh
Piercings: othing
Number of Tattoos: got a few in the making.. wanna make sure its unique
Number of things in my Past I Regret: 99% of em

(*~* B a s i c s *~* )

1) Single or taken: Single
2) Your Age: 22 *gasp*
3) Birthday:oct 30/83
4) Siblings: none
5) Hair color: gosh read above asshole
6) Eye color: ha above
7) Shoe size: i have to order
8) Name: Anbarasan

(*~* H a v e Y o u E v e r *~* )

2) Smoked: Yes
3) Broken a Bone: i never had that luck
4) Broken the law: Yes
5) Made yourself throw-up: a few times
6) Ever been in love: once.. and ewww
7) Made yourself cry to get out of trouble: When I was like 12
8) Have you ever danced naked in the sun? : no, but ive danced half naked in
the rain.. haha

(*~* R e l a t i o n s h i p s *~*)

1) Who are your best friends? Satish, Yeshwanth, Indira, Archana
2) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: had one, but i don't wanna remember
abt that
3) Did you send this to your crush/boyfriend/girlfriend: no fuckers.

Friday, September 02, 2005

The Choice

I was very happy. My girlfriend and I had been dating for over a year, and
so we decided to get married. My parents approved and helped us in every
way. My friends encouraged me, and my girlfriend? She was the woman of my
dreams!

There was only one thing bothering me. That was my girlfriend's best friend.
She was a career woman, smart, but most of all, beautiful and sexy.
Sometimes flirted with me, which made me feel uncomfortable.

One day, she invited me to come over to discuss something about the wedding.

So I went. She was alone, and when I arrived, she whispered to me that soon
I would be married, and she had feelings and desires for me that she
couldn't suppress. So before I got married and committed my life to her best
friend she wanted to make love to me just once.

What could I say? I was in total shock, and couldn't say a word. So, she
said, "I'll go to the bedroom, and if you are up for it, just come and get
me."

In great anticipation I just watched her delicious body as she moved slowly
up the stairs. I stood there for a moment, and then turned around and went
to the front door. I opened it, and stepped out of the house.

To my surprise, my girlfriend was standing outside. And with tears in her
eyes, she hugged me and said, "I love you so much. You have passed my little
test. I couldn't ask for a better man to marry!"

The moral of the story?
.
.
.
.

>>>Always keep your condoms in the car <<<

I am

I'm Only Me, Thats All I Can Be. No More, No Less, Dont Second Guess. I Love
, I Laugh, I Live & I Cry Sometimes I Wish That I Could Die.
Somedays I'm Funny, But Others Im Not.
You May Not Like Me, But Thats Ok. This Is Me & Thats How I'LL Be

You say you are my friend your helping me is just a trend wait until you
know my worst then we'll see if your here in the end.

Angels or Devils

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in u
I can see the love in u
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
r we ever
r we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
r we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

still I can see the pain in u
and I can see the love in u
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
r we ever
r we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
r we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

Cute Sexy Passionate or InLove

What is sexy? Sexy is standing in the rain as you push me up against the
hood of your car, tearing my shirt, as you kiss me with the intent to never
stop.

What is cute? Cute is young & inexperienced. Cute is holding hands in the
car & kissing at the red lights.

What is passion? Passion is knowing what you want & stopping at nothing
until you get it.

What is love? Love is the amazing balance of all of these things, in your
mind, heart, body & soul.

So I ask you..... Are you cute, sexy, passionate, or in love?